I remember
my first Christmas party with Grandma. I was just a kid. I remember tearing
across town on my bike to visit her on the day my big sister dropped the bomb:
"There is no Santa Claus," she jeered. "Even dummies know
that!"
My Grandma was not the gushy kind, never had
been. I fled to her that day because I knew she would be straight with me. I
knew Grandma always told the truth, and I knew that the truth always went down
a whole lot easier when swallowed with one of her world-famous cinnamon buns.
Grandma was home and the cinnamon buns were still
warm. Between bites, I told her everything. She was ready for me. "No
Santa Claus!" she snorted. "Ridiculous! Don't you believe it. That rumor
has been going around for years and it makes me mad, plain mad. Now put on
your coat and let's go." "Go? Go where, Grandma?" I asked. I
hadn't even finished my second cinnamon bun.
"Where"
turned out to be Kerby's General Store, the one store in town that had a little
bit of just about everything. As we walked through its doors Grandma handed me
ten dollars. That was a bundle in those days. "Take this money," she
said, "and buy something for someone who needs it. I'll wait for you in
the car."
Then she
turned and walked out of Kerby's. I was only eight years old. I'd often gone
shopping with my mother but never had I shopped for anything all by myself.
The store seemed big and crowded, full of people scrambling to finish their
Christmas shopping. For a few moments I just stood there, confused, clutching
that ten-dollar bill, wondering what to buy and who on earth to buy it for.
I thought of
everybody I knew: my family, my friends, my neighbors, the kids at school and the
people who went to my church. I was just about thought out when I suddenly
thought of Bobby Decker. He was a kid with bad breath and messy hair. He
sat right behind me in Mrs. Pollock's second grade class.
Bobby
Decker didn't have a coat. I knew that because he never went out for recess
during the winter. His mother always wrote a note, telling the teacher that he
had a cough but all of us kids knew that Bobby Decker didn't have a cough
and he also didn't have a coat. I fingered the ten dollar bill with growing
excitement. I would buy Bobby Decker a coat. I settled on
a red corduroy one that had a hood to it. It looked real warm and he would
like that.
"Is
this a Christmas present for someone?" the lady behind the counter asked
kindly as I laid my ten dollars down. "Yes,"
I replied shyly, "It's ... for Bobby." The nice
lady smiled at me. I didn't get any change but she put the coat in a bag and
wished me a Merry Christmas.
That
evening, Grandma helped me wrap the coat in Christmas paper and ribbons and
write, "To Bobby - From Santa Claus" on it. Grandma said that Santa
always insisted on secrecy. Then she drove me over to Bobby Decker's house
explaining as we went that I was now and forever officially one of Santa's
helpers.
Grandma
parked down the street from Bobby's house and she and I crept quietly and
hid in the bushes by his front walk. Then Grandma gave me a nudge. "All
right, Santa Claus," she whispered, "Get going."
I took a
deep breath, dashed for his front door, threw the present down on his step,
pounded the doorbell and flew back to the safety of the bushes and Grandma.
Together we waited breathlessly in the darkness for the front door to open.
Finally it did and there stood Bobby.
Forty years
hasn't dimmed the thrill of those moments spent shivering beside my Grandma
in Bobby Decker's front yard. That night I realized that those awful rumors about
Santa Claus were just what Grandma said they were: ridiculous. Santa was alive
and well and we were on his team!
(Personal
Note: The truth is, while I can't prove that Santa Claus really does exist -
neither can I or you prove that he doesn't. One thing for sure however is that
Jesus really does exist and He wants us all to always be kind to each other. As
long as believing in Santa doesn't dim our belief in Jesus then perhaps how we
personally make reference to the spirit of Christmas is inconsequential.)